I hate human who think about their self  needs 

who think that they should be the one be the first in all things

But i think they got it wrong

if you all stay being like that then i wish you all , all the best for life

iT NOT THAT hard to be EVIL 

BUT ITS harder then you think of to be an ANGEL 

well i wanna tell you something and show you this couple 

they are so sweet but they had long been apart 

wanna see ?

okey down here looked!

 well you can see here its blurred

are they sweet hais..

and theres one more

well i know its my fault for being not so caring upon you

but this is the right way , you hurt me , and i hurt you

we're both hurt from each other 

didn't expect this would happen 

you should know this up coming is our 1year anniversary 

please i wanna celebrate with you 

even if we have nothing to do with each other anymore 

but i still do care 

My truly facts that i can't hide .. erm yeah now im at melaca erm .. its cold here

Its you

Precisely i only left with three days 

Then you're gone 

Why do we meet at the first place if we know that we're gonna be on our separate ways :'(

like people say

People come and go , they go and left with memories that can't be erased

if only she know that i love her 

and if only i know her before this 

wouldn't it be great :"(

my tears is not for fun 

my tears are only for those who is special to me 

whom i will sacrifice anything for her 

There are songs that make you sad when you hear them. But it aren't the songs that make you sad, it are the people behind the memories.

 

          Some people come into our lives, leave footprints on our hearts, and we are never the same.

and it will not be the same with her 

i hope she's happy with her bf now . hope for the best 

i just want her to know that i love her and i care for her 

i know everything that start will always has the ending to it 

maybe this is the ending :'(

not much to talk about now .. 

just gonna miss her face, hug ,and mostly her eyes ..

hey peps..

well maybe today is my sad day 

:"(

For those people who seems to be hurt today 

let this be your opening eye to what occurred in my life

The year 2010 , i was at the playground waiting up for my admirer to arrived ,

she came with the smile that i had been brighten up the day 

when the night came on the 5th of December 2010, i asked her hand out

and said" wasn't the sky nice in the night time?"

she answered back " yeah of course it is." with a fine tone

without me myself knowing that my hearts starts to feel 

weird feelings towards her

well i guess that's the love feeling that i felt on that night . 

Then i asked her by the hand to be my steady , or be my girl, 

or be my replacement. She was firstly shocked and 

she knew that i would asked her that question , 

she gave me the look of confused . 

As for me that time, i was under stressed as 

my heart tells me that she will not accept me . 

Eventually it turns out to be different , 

she agree or accepted me as her love . 

I was like on that time ,

i felt relieved to know that she actually do love me .

But somehow she shy to tell me, oh well the truth had 

revealed and she's mine ,

I own this Chickaro

Want to know who is my Chickaro

Its Sheeween or the real name is 

Nurul Siiriin Bte Othman

She had stolen my heart deeply till i had fallen in love with her since then 

 And our love story starts 

this is when i first wanting to be close with her 

the first end of the year celebration is this

 then slacking at the chalet 

then the time when i was depressed , 

after i get to know that my sis was been hospitalized

then it was the Edp outing watch movie

next the outing to Anugerah (singing competition)

then its my birthday picnic at the pasir ris park 2011

4June

well i wished those happiness could come back 

oh please come back to me , i need you my dear

i may say the harsh words upon you but i didn't mean it .

i swear , 

after what you had message me ,i feel so sad 

i hope you will know that i will not let you go

no matter how big our matters are Mhy

remember that ..:"(

i love you so much Mhy , 051210

Wey Humans 

Wanna know what

i dream about something bad in the morning

around 2-3 am after i surf in my facebook.

my dream had People in it ,

Ahyeen, Siiriin , Syikin, Thats all i remember 

firstly i dream that i was slacking under one block then somehow

Syikin appear in the scene she did say something with me at the side about Ahyeen

then when i went back and slack back over the table
then if i was not wrong i shout to Ahyeen saying out what Syikin told me early just now

Suddenly Syikin said that wasn't for Ahyeen ,and thats the old story .

I was like angry on that point of time 

i shoot out bad word to Syikin face , she just shut up the i was to angry 

i just bring my stuff along with me then walk off

And at the end of my ear i heard that the rest of the slackers 

asked Siiriin to talk to me , but the reaction of hers were like half hearted 

She followed me from behind till to the bustop then when she wanted to talk to me 

i got a call from my mom saying that am i goi to hospital to visit Nanadice 

i was like yupyup im goin to meet her then i was awaken by my sis hais ..haiyah ..

so now my concern is Siiriin inside my dream..why she need to be half hearted 

im totally hurt ..

crying now    

i miss the old of us

you people have patience 

my patience is very thick that i still 

can stand up straight upon what you have done

Just because of my love to deep for you 

would you believe it?

helooo

peps wanna sumting 

i had fun in school 

.. totally   ..

daily life wake in the morning 

bath , get ready for school, then off to school

meet Arzli , Ahyeen , Sean

take bus num 8

straight to school then went to my class to essemble

sing singapore song and take pledge 

first period english make my day totally

Movie time yaw!

its some sort of spiderwick i guess

super fun and we watch it at the ITR 

cold nohh

 

then half way was an exchange period to maths lesson 

erm boring uhc..

the teacher teach i play game haha

until recess time 

'

ITS RECESS YAWW!

eat eat eat like pig nohh haha
eat with my Baby and Arzli the usual..

 then we went to smoke

k , k  if i need to tell the whole story

it will just fill up my blog space rite haha 

so let me tell you about what happen when we were slacking..

just now i went to slack at tg 

well it turn out to be fine with my gurl but after about 20 mins

me and sean run up to other blk do wan see someone

face..

erm so yarh she got mad maybe then 

 yarh kae i feel lazy to update just 

wanna say that i miss the old time lah bby!

i swear i miss everything about you

okey i will change back to my old self but 

it will turns out to be more worse if you realize it..

....

byye love you..  <3

FUCKER!!

hey excuse me yeash i may be evil in ur eye

if u wanna beat me ..

bring it o

cause i knw i did ntg just to get a pic gan my bestie!!!

and im creating ohh pls not my type and wasting my bloody

time !

hais nehmind put my mind at rest,,

now eating cococrunch and milk! weeweeeeee

swet nice haha

nice rite !

Aper salah aku sampai kau nak buat aku macam nie?

aku tak pernaH  tolong kau ker?

aku tak pernah buat kau senyum ke?

jahat sangat ker aku nie sampai kau nak buat macam nie?

tak tengur aku ?

tak bbl gan aku?

kalau betul aku buat salah aku mintak maaf

dah sememangnyer aku dah pun mintak maaf 

den aper lagy kau nak?

Dan aper salah aku sampai org ketiga 

yang kau sanjung tuh adk angkat kau tersayang masuk campur?

ader hamba allah nie bilang aku aper yang dier msg

through hp kau yang dier takan anggap kau sebagai 

brother dier kalau kau pergi gan aku aper dier nyer maksud?

, kau memang tak blh lari dari keyataan 

yang aku nie dah pun termasuk dalam dunia kau..

 

kau memang tak akan tahu aper salah kau ..

tapi dengan cara kau gini ikut cakap adek angkat kau tersayang 

semua berubah dengan sekelip mata

hais..

aper maksud kau berubah ?

Asal aku nanges?

Nanges sebab kehilangan kawan yang aku kenal untuk dua tahun ..

kawan yang aku sayang untuk dua tahun..

tapi aper yang aku dapat??

memang aku tahu aku yang selalu

banyak marah tapi  , aku mintak maaf ..

aku bukan sengaja cumer aku kadang2 nak tegur 

kau maner yang aku tak suka tuh jer

memang aku mengaku aku kuat merajok 

sebab aku nie dipanggil manusia

yang ader perasaan 

dan sememang nyer kalau aku nie 

takde perasaan aku takan nanges 

disebabkan persahabatan  kiter 

selama dua tahun hendak berakhir..

 terima kasih sebab kau sudah pun sakit kan hati aku

sendangkan aku dah mintak maaf kau masih kelakuan macam nie

MEMANG KAU CAKAP TAKDE KWN TAK MATI

TAPI BILER KAU KEHILANGAN KWN 

MACAM KAU KEHILANGAN HP KAU 

YANG MANER BLH IKUT KAU DAN DENGAR CERITA SEDIH KAU

SEKARANG SEMUA NYA BERAKHIR!

nie untuk kau yan aku syg ..

 may you see that i truly treasure my friendship

:'( 

!Heylo!

sorry yaw erm yesterday was so darm tiring day

erm and yeah no internet connection also
erm irrit sia..

yeah yesterday im supposedly meeting umi but
eventually she hasn't been appearing since i reached there meet
my baby around 3.10pm
yeah i was late to meet my baby
sorry kae pls forgive me

but everything come out to be fine
there's one part i scolded baby because she want to bite me
sorry tau ..i scared pain that's why
erm sad sey seeing you cry
hais
then after around 3hours hours has past we knew that
Umi will not come because eventually she start her work at 6pm.. hais
its okey Umi i understand kae but
atleast text us that you'll not be coming so that me and sheeween will not
be waiting up for you
hais its okey wat past is past
then around 6+ i and sheeween was craving for cigg
i went on walking every where finding cigg asking people to give me one
and I'll pay 50cents
THEN THIS BLOODY HELL UNCLE
FARTED AT ME FOR 5MINUTES
WHEN I WAS ABOUT TO ASK FOR CIGG NABE!
 THEN HE ASNSWER ME 
''OH SORRY I LEFT ONE ONLI''

CIBAI ..FARTED AT ME AND SAY HE DON'T HAVE NO MANNERS!

but then hor there's one guy be my life severe !'
haha he gave me one stick yeah! nice!
i wanted to give him the fifty cents but he insisted to take ..
aww how sweet haha

But the night went smoothly we had pleasure time together
seriously we had fun
and i miss your kiss right now and you're hot thingy haha
But something went wrong when i feel there's a thing near the bushes and i look up
and i sense there's a thing looking at us..
i knew there were a thing and that thing was
ghost

!scary! 

onli god knows how i feel
but its okey i send my gurl home
and i walk alone at the dark dark nite
then i wanted to calm my self down i went to mama shop
i buy ice cream

red bean ..woah nice sia..
i forget about my fear haha
:)
peace okeyokey tahts all for now i miss my
gurl syg!!!

♥ :) love you sayang i swear i have no one else onli u 

i love you siiriin 

isn't she pretty 

hais 

i love her so much darm much now 

hoping for the best ahead with her i miss her  already

nari i went slcking at tg with baby , Umi , arzli and raaw ..

but somehow arzli went off earlier because of his mom

and raaw erm well went to met her becoming bf 

left me and Baby waited for Umi

erm Umi i miss you yeah got to see you just now!

 i miss you! 

but MY baby wil never fail to make me smile just now 

thx sayang

we spend time with each other 

o darm missing my gurl now by my side!

i love you baby ..yeash i do so much 

i will never want to let you go

because i still need in my life!

..pls don't ever repeat the past that had already 

make us fight

i cry every time we fight

lets just love each other and have funn kae blh haha

sayang you one and only 

:)

Siiriin 

                                           

                                               ❤RINDU ❤

 

ERM rindu dier uhc so darm much dapat tau 

!dah nak kua !

!yeash uhc !

!cepatcepat kua tau!

!adk miss abg so much!

my one and onli 

!abg sachok!

                                                ❤❤❤❤

                                       miss you Abg Akiee

Feeling alone 

feeling missing her so much

feeling wanting to mit her and grab hand

and wouldn't let go

i swear i love you so much 

now precisely my heart hurts alot 

thats y i just wanted to be alone for now

you had said it yesterday

i don't wan to mit you animore 

okey then your wish has been granted 

im inlove with you but now you said this 

.:: Sheeween.::

I just felt tat im no longger yours... Its better if we just go our seperate ways... Im just hurting u so much and im not happy wif wat i did..I just want u to be happie.. If u're happie..I'll be happie for u... It's just tat im to ego... U're mad at me n im sorry... I just wanna have a last hug n a last kiss from u b4 i go... Can i have tat last kiss n last hug from u??

 this is what you say

you what , the way you say it out at the  fb had already 

hurt me much

baby pls don't ever leave me for the good one..

pls bby

Do Not Cry My Love

                                                                       I do not want any tears falling down
                                                                                         From his beautiful eyes
                                                                            He does not belong to that character
                                                                                               I rather to be hurt
                                                                    Than seeing the crystal breaks on the ground

                                                                                       Please do not cry my love
                                                                                             I can barely stand
                                                                                        If that tears come down
                                                                        Wetting your cheek with sadness in them

                                                                                                 Wait a while
                                                                                            I can comfort you
                                                                      For that would stop your tears from falling
                                                                                  I can get ahold of you at night
                                                                                               For that would mend your heart

                                                                                     Please do not cry my love
                                                                                          I can hardly breathe
                                                                                             If that tears run down through
                                                                                that anxious wrinkles on your face

                                                                                   I ain’t that strong either
                                                                                     For this I would do
                                                                                    If I could not stop that tears
                                                                                              I can still share the feeling
                                                                                           And break down with you.

bby pls i really need you in my life

Bhy i risau psl u... Tk tawu y tibe2 otak i asyik terfikir psl u... 

Serious i miss u gyler babi.. 

Dari td i asyik bace u nye blog n fb..

Bhy pls lah im soorrryy...

Kaeh.. I janji i tk kan lps kan u... 

I tk kan ckp mcm tu lg kaeh bhy... 

 

ni lah aper yang you cakap.

you janji gan i

tapi nie yan i dapat?

feeling hurt is the normal thing in 

RELATIONSHIP

Asal you selalu give up untuk i

i tak pernah nampak you try to get me back in ur life?

y bhy?

y?

i sanggop buat aper sahaje untuk u..

mati pun i sanggop!

just don't leave me..pls

i dah maaf kan you pun 

i akan selalu maaf kan you sebab i sayang you sangat sangat

 

I will never let you go no matter what

because i love you so much 

I will promise you something that 

i will never let you go

Nurul Siiriin 

051210

i sayang kan you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

dissapointed - down - sad

i don't know what im feeling now ..

swear i don't know ..

how i wish this wouldn't happen upon me 

 .:: to bby .::

i love you so much 

but you didn't seem to realize it..

not knowing how hurt i am

you just see how hurt you are

yeash i may seem to be happy 

but deep down my heart 

its bleeding 

but for sure i will not show it in front of  you

precisely i don't want to see you cry no more

every sec - min - hour - day - month - year 

i will miss you but will you care ..

im so disappointed with your reaction just now ..

i swear if im not cry outside 

the worst thing is im crying inside no one will know 

especially you

 

you need to know that i love you so darm fucking much 

that i myself can't even say the word "Break"

no way im letting you go

but eventually today was the worst day ever

i swear i can't hold on to my tears now..

erm ...

Today was a bad day for me when came in to the period of chemistry oh god 

it can eventually killed me to death sey  

hais

sad sia can't see aniting because the boys blocked my view 

thx eh guys well done ...

pls do it again *sarcastic

hais give up sia with chemistry totally !

its okey no mood to type liao erm

bubbye then erm but as always love my one and only 

Sheeween 

051210

hey peps..

im bored and i wanna share 

something

erm here i go..

 

I'm so confused...

I mean, I want to let go...

I want to let go of all this pain,

but I'm afraid I'll go insane...

she may come back, I have some hope,

but with everything else, how can I cope.

  I want to let go...

I'm going to let go, but if I wait and see, 

will she come back to me?

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut

My weakness is that I care too much

My scars remind me that the past is real

I tear my heart open just to feel"

 

you know baby i just can't stop loving you

every tears that i've cried just now 

its the true

im so loving you as i know 

i can't be apart with you

 

                                I may not get to see you as often as I like. 

I may not get to hold you in my arms all through the night. 

But deep in my heart I truly know,you're the one that

I love and I can't let you go.

baby i love you and yeash its true..

loving 051210 

150610

061210

!!

bubby love you all nitenite

*yawn sweetdreams..

hey peps

dah lamer tak update..

kaey lets start

nari sakit uhc ader fever sodeh..

erm 

missing someone so much now

my sis

Faizana 

kak nana , i hope u will recover soon

i miss your laughter , your smile , your jokes

everything about you i miss 

espeacially ur anger..

i know u're strong to overcome this

eventhough im not the one who feeling the pain

but i knw u cn make it through 

i love so much ..this love of mine to you

will stay till i die..

i miss so much 

kakak maseh ingat when ever we want to sleep we will 

make jokes..

i miss so much now

:'(

i wish all of this wouldn't happen to me

argh ...

sumpah aku tak de mood nak senyum,...ketawa

lagy!!!!!!!!!!

wish u were here to hear what is my problem

about

but eventually 

u're

not ready to be with me

:'(

i just want her back

pls

and for my baby

i love you alott

i will keep my promises to you

just pls don't leave baby.

i just miss you so much too

i need you everyday of my life

let others say bad things about us 

even if it had to hurt me or your feelings

it wouldn't break us apart

..

but if he or she had come over the limit

i will make sure he or she come begging for our 

forgiveness

kaey

I LOVE YOU SHEEWEEN

SO MUCH

:)

Peace (Y)

i will stick to one 

and thats you

baby!